Dream

November 28, 2024

I had a strange dream. I was at home with my mother, and another girl was there too. I don’t know exactly who the girl was or why she was living with us. However, I know that I had been teasing her from time to time, and we had a kind of friend-ish relationship.

At one point, when I teased her, she didn’t respond. I thought it was unusual but decided to leave it alone. Later, when I came back and still didn’t get a response, I found her in the washroom.

She was standing in a puddle of sodium washing powder, tears streaming down her face, trying to ignite the powder to kill herself.

I asked her what was wrong, and she told me she had a sickness. She used the German word “Verzerrung” to describe it, which roughly means “consumption” — a disease where the body eats itself, leading to a slow and agonizing death with no cure.

I hugged her and then sat down at the dinner table with my mother, thinking about what to do.

I woke up - It was 4 AM.