- awakebutstillinbed - Bloodline
- Flying Leaf

- Gozu (2003)

This is the third movie I’ve watched by director Takashi Miike, the other two being Ichi the Killer and Audition. And just like those two, this movie is very strange, though “strange” is an understatement. It’s easily weirder and more unsettling than both of them combined. It’s also the movie during which I most often audibly said, “What?”
I feel sorry for the protagonist: he gets a supposedly routine job from his boss, only to encounter the most bizarre things imaginable. At one point, it felt like he wasn’t even surprised anymore, just resigned.
If you want to watch something completely abnormal, full of moments that make you go “What?” and refuse to make any sense, then watch this. It’s exactly the kind of movie I love. 8/10.
- Door of Perception

I like it. It’s by the author who wrote Brave New World, and it’s about his experience with the psychedelic drug mescaline and his attempt to make sense of that experience. Though I will say, to fully appreciate it, there are quite a few prerequisites one should be familiar with, such as having done psychedelics, Kant’s ontology (das Ding an sich), Meister Eckhart, Buddhism (e.g. “suchness”), and, especially for the second half (Heaven and Hell), art, paintings, and literature.
Maybe a bit about the connection between Heidegger and Huxley. For Heidegger, the world we encounter is already inherently meaningful. We do not first perceive an object and then assign meaning to it; rather, meaning is already embedded within it. A hammer, for instance, is not merely a stick with a head made of steel; it is something to nail with, a part of our toolbox and our practical world. Thus, for Heidegger, the problem with modern ontology is that meaning does not arise from detached observation, but from being-in-the-world. Our normal, everyday way of perceiving is already meaningful.
For Huxley, under the influence of mescaline, the opposite happens. Instead of meaning arising from objects through their associations, lived experience, and utility (that is, through being-in-the-world) meaning arises intrinsically from the thing itself.
Under mescaline, Huxley stops seeing things as practical entities within the network of everyday use and begins to see their is-ness (as Meister Eckhart would say), their sheer being and beauty. Space and time fall away, because they are part of the conceptual grid through which we usually understand the world. He experiences pure perception, without the interpretive framework of ordinary Dasein.
- Psychedelics and Faith
And what is true of the mescalin taker is also true of the person who sees visions spontaneously or under hypnosis. Upon this psychological foundation has been reared the theological doctrine of saving faith – a doctrine to be met with in all the great religious traditions of the world. Eschatologists have always found it difficult to reconcile their rationality and their morality with the brute facts of psychological experience. As rationalists and moralists, they feel that good behavior should be rewarded and that the virtuous deserve to go to heaven. But as psychologists the know that virtue is not the sole or sufficient condition of blissful visionary experience. They know that works alone are powerless and that it is faith, or loving confidence, which guarantees that visionary experience shall be blissful.
~ Heaven and Hell